I Am the Main Character in My Life by Abbie Vanessa

I Am the Main Character in My Life

By Abbie Vanessa

“Not being good enough” mentality is exhausting. Growing up in a very traditional Hispanic household, I had to start breaking old customs and ways of thinking. None of that resonated with me, and it never has. It made me feel uncomfortable, yet I always had to make sure I didn’t let my family down. I felt guilty, not making my family proud or happy with everything I did. I decided to ask myself and other people in my life questions about what they thought about their worries and insecurities. I wondered what discouraged them from either doing what feels right to them. I even asked them about the dating world, and they were worried about not having enough to seem intriguing or valuable. That makes me feel sad, and I hate hearing people talk so low about their value. For one, you are not alive to impress others. You don’t owe anyone anything, and you shouldn’t put that on others.

I use to think so negatively about myself. I would stress over how I looked, overthink everything I did, and worry about all the “expectations” my family had because I’m a Latina and a female. The pressure not to fuck up was high. I’m the youngest and the one who challenges others the most. Growing up, my parents were irritated at how much I questioned and didn’t accept how things were. I believed their way of thinking for a while until I decided to live my life for myself and thought, why do I have to live life the way many do. Most are doing what the “right” way to live life is, and it has never been enjoyable to me.


“Do not allow anyone to take away your growth and discourage you from trying something they feel is impossible to do.”


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I don’t like routine and this “order” we need to follow. Everyone is so different. It would be weird for everyone to do the same thing. I didn’t take the “regular” route in life. I did go to college, but to please others so I wouldn’t start an argument on how I would always struggle if I didn’t go. I changed the way I thought and did what I wanted, and let me tell you I put my all into it. I have my expectations as a person, and its so much fun living a life where you’re the main character and have control. I wake up every day feeling how can I be better today. How can I be better for others but also for myself because I don’t like to have bad energy around me or pass it on to others?  It affects my feeling and others in such a big way. There are so many things I need to do to be the person I want to be but can confidently say that I am a genuine, caring, and talented woman.

I remind myself by looking back and seeing how I was and where I’m at today because I stopped letting others define me. I refused to ask people around me if they were proud because the ones who mattered just told me. You never have to ask the people in your life if you’re “good enough,” they will show you. 


I am not what I do. Not what I own or where I live. It’s how I am as a person that defines me.


I noticed when it comes to dating, and you start to see all of the things that you are insecure about that really shouldn’t even be an issue. For example, I found myself trying to remember all the cool activities I did in life to seem appealing. I started feeling low because I felt like I wasn’t good enough, BUT that’s not who I am. I am not what I do. Not what I own or where I live. Its how I am as a person. I want someone to view me for me, not my property. It took a lot of reflection to get out of this mindset, and it got me thinking about how others are feeling. Also, how they have the pressure to have their life together before bringing someone into it. We can have our perfect lifestyle one day, and get it taken away the next. 

People will always find something new to comment on when you do accomplish what they didn’t expect you to do. I’ve noticed that many people I come across feel stuck in their own life and some hate seeing others around them do better. Do not allow anyone to take away your growth and discourage you from trying something they feel is impossible to do. You have to tell yourself every day that you are proud of everything you’ve created and learned. Give yourself a lot more credit. Now enjoy another day.

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There are plenty of people in this world that will adore you and see you as you are with your virtues and your imperfections. Allow yourself to go out and find them, and when you do, keep them close. Love yourself, and don’t let anyone discourage you from doing what you want because it’s not about the path others want for you. Why waste your life on the expectations of others?

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Live Your Life Your Way by Abbie Vanessa

Live Your Life Your Way

By Abbie Vanessa

Listen up, and hope this sticks. I’m sure you guys have heard this regularly, but there are still a lot of people out there that are still allowing others to guide the way you view life. I find myself envisioning my life daily, and it makes me so excited. The second I tell someone about it there’s always a side comment or an unwanted opinion. We are all experiencing different events so why would I listen to someone who isn’t on the same wave.

I am living my life based on everything that I have chosen to have and not have in my life. I’m not following a guideline because it’s basic. It doesn’t fit and won’t fit, so I don’t want to play Follow the Leader. I’m that person that will walk along with people not behind them.

I came from a family that helped me to the max when it comes to life.
Being the only girl and the youngest in the family, I got the most direction and protection from everyone. I had a safety net my whole life, but the day I got emotionally hurt in a relationship, I felt so lost, and I knew I couldn’t have everyone direct the way I live my life.


I’m no Mr. Clean and damn right I’m no housewife.”


If my family had it their way, I would have been forced to do the traditional route. School until I’m 26, find a husband, have kids, and die being a housewife and cleaning after everyone. Let me tell you I’m no Mr. Clean and damn right I’m no housewife.

I grew up watching my mother sacrifice her life to take care of my brothers and me. Making sure the house was perfect for us. Now that we are older, it looks like she is a bit lost. She started working about 4 years ago and is finally getting used to having her own life again, but she was terrified. I continuously tell myself I do not want that for me. So I challenge myself to make life a bit different every day.

I knew college was not going to work for me. My talents would go to waste if I stayed in a classroom reading up on things I can give two shits about. I pushed my friends and family to get comfortable with me, not accepting what they want me to do, and now they are impressed to see where I’m at.


“I will not know how to live life if you and dad constantly save me.”


One day, I asked one of my coworkers what her view was on how to live life. She has a daughter my age; she said one day, her daughter said, “You need to let me fall and get hurt because I will not know how to live life if you and dad constantly save me. You guys try to protect me and make sure I do the right things because you have been there and done that, but I won’t have you forever and can’t depend on you to be my safety net.” This made me so happy because I can imagine how hard it is to be a parent. To want to protect your child from harm, but I’ve learned the hard way that parents will never avoid it.

As individuals, we learn how to figure out solutions and how to cope with what life throws at you. You should live your life the way you want it to be. Don’t waste time pleasing others boo. People only view your life for a few seconds, and honestly, unless that person is next to me 24/7 I’m not letting anyone direct the way I see or live it.

If you are happy, have a home (regardless if it’s alone, with roommates, or with family), food to eat…you are doing great, sweetie. Spend your time doing things that make you happy.

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The Struggle of Being the Youngest Child by Abbie Vanessa

The Struggle of Being the Youngest Child

By Abbie Vanessa

Let me open up a little bit about something. Many of you will be uncomfortable with what I’m about to say but to be honest, it is what it is. I’m the youngest child. My parents had three kids, it doesn’t sound like that many kids, but to my parents, it was like, “ Yooo, we need to help this one too?!?!?” Well, it was like they retired lol.

Most of you probably grew up with classes and parents who put in the effort when it came to teaching you life or death hacks. Not me.


My amazing, loving, adorable mother tossed me into a pool…”


My parents enrolled me in swim lessons, but my ass does not know how to swim. I watched so many movies and shows where parents help the child slowly into the water and holds them to teach them how to float and not panic. The last attempt my mom made to help me swim, I was excited, and let me tell you… IT WAS NOT LIKE ANYTHING I WATCHED.

My amazing, loving, adorable mother tossed me into a pool as if she was throwing a penny into a fountain to make a wish. Did she come in to get me after I was like, “ Holy shit, help me bitch!!” NOPE. Talk about traumatizing your child, only showers for me from now on.

Let’s fast forward a few years. I was the last one in my family to go to confirmation. Two years is how long you have to go to these classes…I went to catholic school for 8 years. Regardless of the topic, I’ve never been great when it came to school. For those who don’t know what confirmation is, you go to school for two years to be sealed with the gift of the Holy Spirit. To be honest, I probably needed it lol. I slept while we had our bible reading, and I’m shocked I never got caught.


“This guy literally said, “Nawww I don’t feel like it.”


This particular situation didn’t bother me too much because I wasn’t putting in effort myself, but the reason I never finished makes me laugh so hard. I had to go to these classes every Saturday. I did a whole year when my dad decided that he was spending too much gas money to be taking me every weekend!!!! YOOOOO LOL he didn’t trip when it came to my brothers. Now I didn’t want to go anyways, but it’s the reason that got me so shook. LOL, this guy literally said, “Nawww I don’t feel like it.”

I can’t swim and didn’t hang with Jesus because of gas money. POINT IS PARENTS STOP HALF ASSING YOUR YOUNGEST CHILD. EVEN THOUGH WE ARE YOUR FAVORITE AND WE KNOW YOU LOVE US LIKE CRAZY!!

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Giving My Younger Self the Confidence I Need By Abbie Vanessa

Giving My Younger Self the Confidence I Need

By Abbie Vanessa

“If you could go back to those moments where you felt attacked in past relationships, what would you tell yourself?” 

I was asked this fascinating question the other day. I was talking about how shitty people were as I was growing up. Oh, how I wished I would have had the confidence that I have now. I could probably write a whole book on all the different times I was too timid to stand up for myself when people disrespected me. There is one instance that I remember the most. I had been dealing with a very toxic person at the time who made me fear for my physical well-being. I walked on eggshells when he was upset because of his reaction to situations frightened me. At that time, the mental damage he could cause didn’t cross my mind.  


“No matter the type of abuse, it leaves a mark in your life.”


Honestly, no matter the type of abuse, it leaves a mark in your life. To this day, there’s a particular situation during that relationship that gets me riled up. As I write about this story, I will refer to my ex as “douche face.” 

Picture it, a cheerful company Christmas party at a beautifully decorated venue. People are enjoying each other’s company, eating good food, a fun photo booth to take pictures with friends, people showing off their dance moves.

Douche face and I sat at the same table with his new boss and boss’s wife. I was chatting it up with the wife, she was super lovely but just stayed at the table. I asked her if she wanted to hit the dance floor. She did, but the music was not her style. I wanted her to have a good time, so I requested the DJ to play a few songs she said she liked. 

Let me tell you, we were having a blast busting moves on the dance floor. She mentioned she liked songs by Selena. The Latina in me screamed with joy and said, “ OHHH MY GOSHHH I LOVE SELENA!” We were enjoying life until douche face comes up to me, grabs my arm, gets close to my ear, and says, “ Remember, you are a lady, so act like it.”

Bitch when I tell you I was fuming…….I stood there for a second to gather my thoughts, knowing I couldn’t say anything in front of everyone. I was so overwhelmed with anger that I had to take a walk, and I lost my shit. My friends at the party cooled me down, but I will never forget that moment. Douche face expected me to be a trophy wife or a robot that just sat there while he did whatever he wanted to. That is not how this was going to play out. 


Don’t you dare give this insecure man any of your tears.”


So, what would I tell myself if I could go back to that very moment?  I would walk up to my younger self, grab my other arm, and say, “ You better dance your little heart out girl. Everything he just told you, brush it off. Don’t you dare give this insecure man any of your tears or reactions. You are a lady, and ladies can do whatever the fuck they want to do, and we live under no one’s shadow. You let that terrible man be miserable and angry by himself.” I’ve learned never to allow a man to mold me into something I’m not. I’m not a toy that’s going to do what you want. 

For the longest time, I thought I had something wrong with me. Wondering how I am supposed to be? GIRL, I WOKE UP ONE DAY AND SAID FUCK THAT DOUCHE FACE. I WILL BE NO ONE’S SHADOW, LET ALONE A MISERABLE BITTER MANS. So, I decided to drop that whole relationship and work on who I wanted to be as a person.

I worked hard for two years, and I feel super stable. I don’t allow anyone to tell me how to be. Not even my momma. And she pooped me out of her body. The point I’m trying to make is that you should find what version of yourself makes YOU the happiest and not allow others to change your views about yourself. 

Unless you are that shitty person, you should probably change and be better.

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My Baby Pug Turns Three Months by Abbie Vanessa

My Baby Pug Turns Three Months

By Abbie Vanessa

My baby pug is now three months. Winston is such a good boy! I started to take him on walks and train him to go potty outside. Grass was introduced to him about two weeks ago. He LOVES tiny leaves. It makes me giggle every time he finds one and he does little zooms (runs supper quickly out of nowhere). It’s enjoyable seeing him explore everything. I tend to forget that he was literally born not too long ago and everything is crazy amazing to him.


“It’s enjoyable seeing him explore everything.”


Treat Your Dog

I have a friend that will be training him and she talked to me about doing a whole month training. It would be like a mini boarding school and honestly it did not sound great! I don’t know how I feel about letting Winston go away for a month this young. Let alone how I would feel if he dipped out and was not being able to see home. Shit it would traumatize me and him!

Look I don’t need my dog to be a robot. I just want us to be able to communicate so we can live our best lives. Was there anything we could do before going to that extreme? I suggested that I want to be there with her as she trains him as an option as well.

I’ve been able to teach him so many tricks. He really knows how to listen. Compared to other dogs he is a tiny dude; he’s still intimidated by other dogs because of their size.

Before the quarantine I was taking him to puppy play at petco every week. He doesn’t seem to care too much for it. He’s around humans all day and it makes me wonder if he thinks he is a human himself.

He started to be a bit more vocal with myself and others. This is very cute but also a bit terrible when it comes to timing. 


This boy gets so much attention from so many people!


This boy gets so much attention from so many people! We went on a walk the other day and probably every 5 minutes you could hear someone say “OMG! He is so cute and tiny!!!! I’ve never seen a pug puppy” I have to whisper in his ear “you a little ugly” just so it doesn’t get to his head. I don’t want a dog that walks around like he is the Brad Pitt of pugs. LOL

Alsoooooo! Guys! I’m so done with buying this kid toys. I got him so many so he wouldn’t be bored and tell me why he enjoys just playing with every outfit I wear, a plastic cup, lint on the floor, even his pee pee pad. BUT how does one not buy everything for the cutest puppy ever! I literally want to shower him with toys, food, and love!!!!!

Anyways, today I’ve taken him outside like 4 times and he still hasn’t gone potty. I bet he is waiting until I don’t see him to just do his business indoors and I’ll find it as a surprise. Honestly, I think about what he thinks when I pick up his poop. Like maybe he thinks I keep it all and thats why he does it indoors so I can find it easily LOL

Training him and teaching him new tricks is really easy. I swear he is the smartest puppy I’ve ever met. I nod at him and he does it back as if we both said “whatsup.”

I’ve taught hims how to howl!! I was doing it to him for a cool minute and I’m assuming he got so annoyed he mocked me. Regardless it made me so happy. Im a proud momma.

A++ for Winston. 

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How Being an Empath Can Lead to Getting to Know Yourself by Abbie Vanessa

How Being an Empath Can Lead to Getting to Know Yourself

by Abbie Vanessa

Some people are more in tune with their emotions than others. Those people are known as empaths. I believe it is a fantastic quality to be in tune with your emotions and understanding what/how another person is dealing with their life. Have you ever connected to someone so easily it FREAKED you out? People made it seem as a negative thing to be “sensitive” and understand your emotions, but being an empath can lead to getting to know yourself.


“I believe it is a fantastic quality to be in tune with your emotions.”


First of all, fuck everyone who makes us feel like we are less stable for understanding and actually allowing us to experience a beautiful thing…EMOTIONS. Being an empathic person is more common in females, but can also be men.

Certain traits that can make you an empath: 

  • Always on the lookout for the truth
  • Have a heart of gold
  • Overwhelmed in crowded places
  • Sense when people are lying (I’m not talking about when you caught your boyfriend or girlfriend cheating for the 5th time).

Emotions overwhelm empathic people. These emotions can lead to:

If you don’t learn how to understand it, you can get to a place in life where everything becomes overwhelming. As an empathic person my heart runs heavy almost every day. All of the emotions I feel especially when taking on someone else’s is so overwhelming.

Growing up I was a super sensitive person and was ashamed of it; I hid it very well from everyone. In the last couple of years I realized how easily it was to connect with others as well as feel exactly what they were feeling when they would talk, tell me stories, or even spill their emotions to me. I would not be able to shake it off for days. When I would be around people I would read the energy in the room and know exactly how someone was feeling. It’s so strong I can’t ignore it and I tend to help whomever needs it.


“All of the emotions I feel especially when taking on someone else’s is so overwhelming.”


It’s very hard to watch intense movies or documentaries which is tough for me because I enjoy a lot of crime series. So basically what I’m trying to say is that I cry almost every time there’s a strong crazy scene. Being in the people business I had to learn to leave all of the energy and emotions that I would get from my clients at work. When I get home I just sink into my bed and it feels like I’ve just completed a long hike. 


I had to learn to leave all of the energy and emotions that I would get from my clients at work.”


I first noticed that I was empathic when I analyzed my relationships with people and how it would make me feel. The way I would react and how my emotions would be affected.

Recently, I befriended this girl I had met through another friend and we hit it off so well. We started to text everyday and hang out often. Someone had finally matched my personality until everything got too emotional. This friend started to get very possessive. She demanded me to be there whenever she had an issue, big or small. I felt so low and emotionally drained after all that drama and it was tough because I rarely deal with situations like that. I decided to take a break from this friend because every emotion was too extreme for me to handle. After removing myself from it cold turkey I was back to being calm and happier. I wasn’t crying from panicking too much.

There was a time in my life where I hit a very low point and I just didn’t want to feel anything anymore. I used to admire people who just brushed most things off and went on like nothing happened to them. Literally I held on to all these emotions that didn’t serve me any purpose.

I got so tired of being taken over by my feelings, but also I realized that I wouldn’t want to be the kind of person that is not attuned with her emotions. Finally, I realized that I have to embrace and understand this part of me. My lesson, I realized that I have to be pickier about how I spend my time and with whom. Yoga, meditation, and of course Winston helps me reboot everything and live in the moment. 

Afterall, I just needed a place to forget the world and just be in the moment and silence my head. Because that bitch can get way too loud. I learned how to be alone for the first time, which is huge for me. Being around so many people my whole life I became an extroverted person, even the thought of being alone terrified me.

I get overwhelmed if I’m around people 24/7. NOW my alone time is one of the most precious things I have. And no one is worth me sacrificing my “me time.”

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Manifesting My Pug Dreams by Abbie Vanessa

Manifesting My Pug Dreams

By Abbie Vanessa

MY DREAMS HAVE COME TRUE! I have always loved the idea of owning a pug. It was my mission to manifest my pug dreams.

I loved this beautiful creature long before meeting him. Winston Pasqual Frijolito is the name of my baby boy. Let me tell you he is far from boring! If he was a human he would be the guy you would love to be around. So confidently dorky that it made him so likable.

I waited a few years before actually getting him. Mostly because I wanted to make sure I would be able to give him the best life. I am talking about the spoiled life. About a year ago I told myself that it was time. I was finally in a position at work where my hours were flexible enough to own my dream pug, and to be able to have him with me 24/7. Living at home brought a big challenge my way. What is that challenge?? Well, I call her “Mom.” 

My mom is a very neat and organized person. Having an inside dog would interfere with her spotless house. Frustration would take over my mother whenever the conversation of me randomly showing up with a pug would come up. I thought to myself.. how will I get this woman to love pugs as much as I do? I decided to go to Michael’s Arts and Craft store to buy paint and the biggest canvases I could find. My diabolical plan was in full effect: paint pugs in different situations and outfits with the hope she would fall in love with them. Along with bombarding her phone with cute pug photos. I would randomly text her photos of pugs while she was at work just to keep them relevant.

Let me tell you guys… My plan worked!! I knew harassing her with pug photos and paintings would eventually break the woman!! All the cuteness could not be ignored! I played it off like I wasn’t the happiest person on earth. Told her I’ll look into a few pups. We had a talk about how he would be an inside dog. Once I moved away she wouldn’t have to worry about it.


“I was going to manifest my dream of having a pug no matter what.”


I was looking up different rescues for months; it was exhausting! My goal was to adopt a pug that was at least a year old. It was such a hard search because there were so many requirements to even apply to adopt. Then one day, a friend sent me a post of this female pug that needed a new home; she was a year and a half. I thought OMG, I need to jump on this quickly.

I checked off all of the requirements asked for. The adoption lady kept postponing meeting up. It was frustrating. I waited for two weeks and I never got a call saying if I was getting her or not. The day after new years I said “Fuck it I’m going to look online one more time.” I was going to manifest my dream of having a pug no matter what. I came across a man who had one pug puppy left from the litter. I was hesitant at first because puppies are a lot of work. Especially, since I had envisioned myself adopting an older dog. Was I prepared to be the mom of a baby pug? As soon as I saw the photo of him the answer was “Hell YES!” 

The day I picked up my little one was the best day of my life! I can’t imagine my life without him anymore. He was born on November 10th, which is now a date I will definitely never forget. A day that will forever be engraved in my heart. I wake up every morning to his handsome face. Everything I’ve ever wanted is right in front of me. He is a little sassy with a lot of personality. I am proud to say that is all me right there.


Everything I’ve ever wanted is right in front of me.


The toughest part about this experience was getting the confidence and believing that I would be a great dog parent. Regardless of what others say about getting an animal. It’s funny how people inflict fear and doubt when I brought up the idea of me one day owning my pug. Here’s the thing, I understand that there’s a different level of responsibility about owning another living creature, but I did not listen to anybody except myself.

My entire life has been filled with unpredictable, hard, shitty situations I still figured them out and bounced back. I figured, I rather live this life with the one thing I know will make me the happiest and no one can stop me. I control manifesting my happiness. Winston Pasquale Frijolito is the best gift this world has ever provided for me (also my family and friends, but this is not about them right now).

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About Abbie Vanessa

About Abbie Vanessa

The day I decided to ignore what everyone wanted me to do was the day I finally figured out who I was as a person. Hello! Let me start by introducing myself ! The name is Abigail Vanessa Rincon, but you can refer to me as Abbie.

I am a hairstylist with a big personality; some may say it’s bigger than my hair. Most importantly I am a mother of a handsome baby pug named Winston Pasquale Frijolito.

Being an ugly awkward child forced me to develop a BIG personality for people to focus on my comedic, silly, and quirky ways. Over the years I noticed that telling jokes was my way of making friends.

I pushed the limits on how weird I could get with people, and no one seemed to be bothered by how dorky I was. With time I realized that I wanted to find a career that matched my personality as well as created a social atmosphere.

My journey to become a hairstylist has been an interesting one. I originally tried the traditional college for years and I was bored out of my mind. I thought back to when my brother peer pressured me to cut my hair extremely short. I was only a kid, when my mom saw my haircut she was devastated. Her judgement brought a lot of insecurities into my life. I would search YouTube for ways to style my hair to prove to my mom how stylish my hair really was. It wasn’t until years later,  despite my family’s approval, that I decided I wanted to be a hairstylist. At the end of the day this is my life, my decisions, and my future. For the last three years, my career has flourished into one of my greatest accomplishments. 


“At the end of the day this is my life, my decisions, and my future.”


I established a career for myself, but what next? Well… One of my other life long dreams was to be a pug mom, not just a “dog mom” but a PUG MOM. The sight of a pug brought such joy and happiness to my soul. You don’t understand…when I say I am obsessed with pugs, I truly mean I AM OBSESSED!!! For years I tried to convince my roommate aka my mom to let me have a pug of my own. The answer was always “NO” because she was concerned with the cleanliness of the house. Finally after successfully executing my clever yet artistic plan to warm my mom’s heart, I got the “YES” I had always hoped for. 

It’s difficult for me to express how much my little Winston means to me. After all the obstacles I went through to get him I now suffer from separation anxiety. I take him everywhere with me, including work, and everyone’s instant reaction when they see him is “Awwwwwww.” 

In a nutshell, that is my life. I’m a Pug Mom with a big personality who has to keep an eye out for my clients who try to steal my child. Honestly, I don’t blame them, if I wasn’t his mom I would try to take him home as well. 

The day that I decide to listen to my voice, and only my voice, is the moment I figure out who I was. There are a lot of things life still teaches me; from continuing to discover new aspects of myself to how to be the best mom for Winston. At the end of the day life is our journey, a journey that Winston and I want to share with you. 

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Thoughts That Came to Mind Because of Coronavirus by Abbie Vanessa

Thoughts That Came to Mind Because of Coronavirus

By Abbie Vanessa

Oh Corona, I have mixed emotions about life right now. The more I think about life at this moment the scarier the thought becomes. Let me explain, we have all been affected by this pandemic in different ways. Lost our jobs, Schools getting shut down, people losing their homes, and people who don’t even have homes. So many lives have been lost. 

I count my blessing every day and I’m grateful that I have a family to be with and not having to worry about where i’ll sleep or if i’ll be able to eat tomorrow. I had to stop going on social media and using the internet for a bit in the beginning. I was so overwhelmed with how much greed, nastiness, and selfishness I was seeing.

NOT EVEN DEATH scared people enough to say “Shit maybe I should just stay home.” DOESN’T THAT BLOW YOUR MIND?

Can’t people stop complaining about staying home if it meant saving your moms, grandmas, sisters, brothers, nieces, nephews and dads life? Just a thought though.

We are struggling and dealing with our own shit, but we can be selfless for just a bit to save each other! Now that had me thinking about how I haven’t been as great as I use to be as a human. 


“We can be selfless for just a bit to save each other.”


I use to volunteer anywhere I could to help out anyone who needed it.

I’ve gotten so wrapped up in work that I just thought about myself and my future and how am I going to be a successful adult !!! A whole two years distracted  from work had me slipping and forgetting about what I really wanted to do in life. Makes me sad living in an environment that easily distracts you from understanding that life is more than just work. When do we just stop and say, “what I have is enough!!” Here is a question I like asking people, What do you value in life aside from this career?” This is more than just a thought. MONEY is not everything. Crazy that if you don’t have enough or any at all you are worthless. This is more than a thought. Thats the reality we accept.

Living in LA, a city where it’s sunny full of beautiful talented people. Sure, thats literally a small part of LA because there’s so much thats being hidden and dismissed. You know what it really looks like? Empty old buildings, streets full of homeless people and trash. It is everywhere and it’s only going to get worse.

By the way, not everyone you see living on the streets have a drug or alcohol problem. It could happen to anyone regardless of not having those difficulties. Most people are living pay check to pay check. Having to come up with money for car payment, car insurance, health insurance , phone bills, rent, school, and ohhh man I can keep going, but I’m sure you get the idea.

IT’S FUCKING RIDICULOUS. We are all in the same position and no one is safe from this. If Corona hasn’t shown you that yet…idk what will.

Getting laid off and not having that security of a full time job can easily be taken away. Doesn’t matter how smart, hardworking, or how much money you make for a company. Stop thinking you are untouchable and above others.

So please, next time you see someone thats in need, think of what you can give away. Supplies, food, clothes, even spend a few dollars on soap to give to them. The small things still matter. No one deserves to have to live that way. This is a great time to sit down and think about how we could be more united and helpful to our own communities to become better humans! To me that doesn’t seem so hard. What a dream to have, right? I know getting everyone to actually want to be a decent human being is impossible but I hope whoever reads this actually wants to change. Even if it’s within your own reality. Be kind, be loving, help a stranger whenever the opportunity arrives, and never expect anything in return. Correct others when they sound stupid as hell with their ignorant ass and guide them to be better. Too many quiet people that allow shit to slide. Also a thought. 


“We could be more united and helpful to our own communities to become better humans!”


ANYYYYWAYS, 

Aside from becoming a better human being here are some things you can do today,

Go for a walk, meditate, read a book, learn a new skill , limit your screen time, fucking get a plant growing, create a vision board. Stay safe and always focus on the bigger picture and don’t get stuck thinking about the things that were taken away from you.

Take a breath and remember that you are capable of literally anything you want to put your mind to. Before sharing kindness and love to others, start by looking into a mirror everyday and appreciating what you have in in this life. Here I will help… 

“Whats up you beautiful creature, cheers to another day of being healthy and looking sexy as hell!!! What I have is enough and I can’t wait to see what is coming my way today.”     

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